Climbing the ladder of His will: January 2008

Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Trials and Philippians

About two weeks ago I underwent surgery that removed 2 teeth and a gigantic tumor/cyst that had grown in my mouth and around my bottom jaw. Yesterday I went back to the dentist to hear how the surgery had gone and whether or not the tumor was cancerous. It wasn't. But that was the good news. Evidently he was unable to completely remove the cyst so in the end of March I have to go back for more serious surgery where they will grind down my jawbone and remove 3-4 more teeth. In order to get the bone to grow back quickly they will take a portion of my hip and grind it up to assist the healing process. Fun. Through this hard time I have re-thought through my motives and purposes for my life. I come to the conclusion that a life that is only partially parallel with God's will is no life at all. We are commanded to dedicate our every moment to the glory of God. It sounds so hard and it is. But let me tell you now, I have been more satisfied and content in this time of hardship than I ever was before. If we can't live today and be completely joyful than it will never happen unless if we change something in our lives. That something is a 100% dedication to God. Listen to this amazing verse I found in Philippians:
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."

Webster's defines the word transcend as: To pass beyond; to exceed; to surpass
That is how Paul describes the peace of God, basically unexplainable, scientifically and logically. We as humans have hard time grasping the fact that when we give up our fleshly desires for what we normally don't want, righteousness, our new desires are so much better and actually fulfilled. I have become so convicted that my life needs to be always about doing God's will and not my own. If God is for us, who can be against us?

I forget where I heard this quote but it has 'haunted' me ever since I read it
"The way we live our days is the way we live our lives."